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Jill
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« Reply To This #102 on: January 29, 2009, 09:21:01 AM » |
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I’m afraid that with this admittedly too undetailed post that I’m about to make, I am going to strike many of you as cryptic and unforthcoming as some of the updates from Kiva have sometimes struck me. For now, I can only say that that’s not how I want to be about this. I’d much prefer for you to have all the information that I have, even the more and more confusing as it’s felt to me, and for you to be able to make up your own minds, or maybe more accurately, for you to figure it all out.
However, I am very deeply committed to trying to do the “right thing” both by Kiva which I still, very much care about and by ANK, which I still continue to believe in, as well. As it turns out, at this point, I am not at all sure what that “right thing” is or how to proceed, and I’m not all that confident that I’m ever going to feel that I will know that.
So, I apologize, in advance, for what I know is going to be a very unsatisfactory post, information-wise, that is. I can only tell you that I believe that if most of you were in my situation, you’d want to be the most careful and the most fair that you could be, too.
For now, I’m just going to say that I’ve been in rather extensive correspondence with ANK, and in some, if quite a bit to a lesser degree, with Kiva. Not having “been there,” I can’t say with absolute certainty that my assessment of the situation is an accurate one, and I’m not asserting that. I can and will say, though, that it’s my rather strong sense that nothing dishonest or lowdown has occurred in ANK’s dealings with Kiva or with us.
Instead, from what I can gather, there appears to have been this pretty close to tragic, almost Shakespearean lack of communication, lack of understanding of what’s going on, of what has been going on, of how business is done, of how it has been and of how, it, necessarily, must be transacted – very possibly on both sides. It’s my sense, which may or may not be legitimate, that both sides have earnestly been trying to communicate, though, perhaps, one side quite a bit more than the other. But, still, both sides.
But that whether it’s a cultural thing (I don’t think so), or an unwittingly fixed mindset thing, or a tech-accounting language thing or a “this is our reality—we are doing the absolute best that we can – why can’t you get that?” thing or some other “thing,” it feels, for me, as though Kiva and ANK have been the proverbial two ships passing in the night.
I don’t understand a lot of what I have been given (sent) to read. And I sure as hell don't really understand or, honestly, want to take the time to try to understand, all the disbursement stuff, this, and the PA-2 (or, whatever it is) stuff, that. And so, I don’t understand a lot of what, actually, has happened.
But what I sense, strongly, and what I think I do understand is that there very well might be two sides in this instance, both of which, very possibly (for me, it’s now likely) are on the up-and-up, who for whatever reason are not getting through to one another, are not fully understanding the other, and it’s gotten, actually, quite painful. I ache to think that they may never get together, that is, reach the understanding that I think (but no, I don’t know for absolute sure) is there to be gotten.
So, sorry, you guys, but that’s all that you’re getting from me. I felt that I wanted to, for myself, I “needed” to say something, and I wanted to suggest that, in this case, especially, you might want to be super careful about jumping to any conclusions of wrongdoing.
I sign with hopes for peace and fairness for all,
Jill
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