I know even before I start this that this is going to be a wildly unpopular post. I’m sort of at a point where I'm not sure I care. How's that for a provocative beginning? Actually, I'm not writing with an intention of trying to be provocative or a basshole (rhymes with.....).
Look, a substantial number of you made your opinions vehemently clear, some months ago, when I first raised the question of the fairness of basket-hoarding. The near unanimity and quite vociferousness of response supporting hoarding loans for friends and for (no-names-will-be- mentioned-here-) teammates pretty much shut me down on the subject. I kind of gave up on it, but I also realized I hadn't very effectively put forward my case, and I was pretty sure my ineptness in expressing what I was feeling probably contributed to the reception I got.
But just so you know, when I wrote, then, somewhere on the Mortgage the House thread, and as I write now, my concern had and, for that matter, now has very little to do with whether I, personally, might make it onto a particular loan or not but almost everything to do with what is best for Kiva and what feels fair. I truly believe that just about everybody here wants what is best, ultimately, for Kiva and its entrepreneurs, and so it's kind of boggled me that we've ended up on different sides on this.
I'm worried I'm not going to be able to articulate a whole lot more effectively, this time, why I've been reacting so strongly to this than I did the last time, but I'm going to give it one more attempt.
For whatever it's worth, here's how I see it:
Look, the people who are here at KivaFriends, already, for the most part, have become hooked, many many many of us already really hooked on Kiva. Whether any of us makes it onto a particular “special” loan or not will not make or break our feelings about Kiva. They’ve got us. We will continue lending because we’ve already seen that there are not only really special loans, here, every once in awhile, but there are all kinds of other reasons we’ve discovered that keep us wanting to come back. Wanting to help eradicate poverty and give more people a decent chance in life being probably paramount.
But that’s true, that is, we'll keep coming back and coming back and lending, that's true just of us and of maybe a relatively small percentage of other Kiva lenders who have not joined the Forum. Unless things have substantially changed since I was following things more closely, the great majority of people visiting the Kiva website have fewer than a handful of loans, if they’ve even made any. As I understand it, one of Kiva’s greatest challenges is to figure out how to motivate more people to return to the website and either start or continue lending after they’ve had their first and possibly only exposure to the site.
Some of you who have been around here longer than some of the others will probably understand what I’m talking about when I say that earlier on, there were a whole lot more unique and tantalizing loans than we get to see now. Whether it’s because of the now too predictable demise (or severance from Kiva) of the smaller, more shoestring, sort of community-generated Field Partners, coupled with Kiva’s tendency, now, to partner up with much larger, much more established and so, much “safer” MFIs, the loans, now, often have a tendency to seem much more cookie-cutter, much more (forgive me) “run of the mill” than they used to be, and that, when
the loans were a whole lot fewer in number than they are now.
As a consequence, loans like the
School For Special Children that’s been “locked up” almost from the moment it first came on tonight are pretty few and far between. In my mind, it’s that kind of loan that has the greatest likelihood of snagging the first-time visitor or convincing that website window-shopper to actually come on in to sample the wares. But most people don’t even have a chance at a loan like that, anymore. I’ve been following it as it’s crawled from something like 36 to 43 to 50 and now to 57%
actually filled while it’s been for all intents, “closed” because supposedly, the entire amount has been “
raised so far” almost from the beginning of the time it first appeared. And that even though every several minutes, a familiar face somehow miraculously manages to get in on what had otherwise seemed to be a loan that was totally closed out.
Can you guys not imagine how frustrating it has to be to people, particularly those who have not even found the Forum, to see loans like that and not to have even a chance at them? Can you really not put yourself in the place of someone who sees a really attractive loan, fleetingly, maybe even repeatedly, but for reasons they can't for the life of themselves, figure out, finds they just never can get in on it, though it seems like other people have found a way?
I swear I’m not feeling holier-than-thou or superior and self-righteous about it. At all. Truth be told, most of the people on this loan and on many of the other loans that seem to get locked up almost as soon as they appear are some of my favorite people here and are people whom I know to have great and wonderful hearts. Sure, on the particular loan, tonight, no question that it was one I would have loved to get in on, but it's not about me. And really, you have to know in your hearts of hearts that it's not about you, either. It's about Kiva and about everybody having an equal chance at the loans you and I find so appealing. The entrepreneurs are going to get funded, one way or the other. So, in a certain way, this is not about them, at least not about the current ones, who seem pretty safe so far as getting their loans filled by someone at Kiva goes.
Anyway, go ahead and disagree with me if that's how it turns out, but please, before you write me and what I'm writing off, please try and think about it from the perspective of someone who isn’t in the “club” and might not even have a clue about how to get in, assuming they’d even want to.
I sign with caring,
Jill
The loan has now inched up to 64% actually filled with at least one additional team member's photo posted since I'd last looked.